I have been thinking about getting the life that I want and what that means. I have been thinking about time, money, growth, and happiness. I want to have control over my time. I want more money to be able to do more for my family. I want to grow massively every day. I want to be happy with the vast majority of my choices. Overall, I am doing these things. I am figuring out that it is not winning to be making the most money. It is winning to be making the money that I want without sacrificing those three other things. That is the life of a badass.
I have decided that I am amazing. I have decided that I am a badass. I have decided that this is my life, and I am going to live it the way that I want to. I serve others. I serve myself. And nothing comes before those two things. I am Ryan Lynch. I deserve the life that I want.
I am grateful for Hailey holding my hand.
I am grateful for carrying Nora.
I am grateful for holding Amber.
I am grateful for talking with Amber.
I am grateful for kisses from Hazel and Molly.
Friday night Nora had her art night at CCYC. It was great to see all of her artwork and watch her class performance. It is just wonderful to know that she is in a place that she is very happy about.
Saturday I got out for a hike with Thor. It is incredible to have a friend who has been a friend for so long (22 years) and that I still want to be my friend. Our topics went over a wide range and it was just good to be with him again. That night Amber and I went out with Matt and Melissa, and again it was fantastic to have two people that it is so easy and fun to talk to. I am also excited because Amber seems very in to Melissa, so maybe there is a budding friendship there.
I have been focused on my database. How do I stay connected. How do I add value. How do I become the person that they want to work with. I am surprised by what it has brought me. It has brought me deep conversations. It has brought me helping others in ways I would not have expected. It has brought me business. Stay focused. Stay consistent. Be the person that others want to work with. Be you.
I am grateful for shoulder rides for Jack.
I am grateful for holding Hailey.
I am grateful for chasing down dogs.
I have been working on being the me that I want to be. I want to be a badass. I am learning what that truly means to me. One thing I thought about was being able to help others, and the different ways that I can do that. One of my close friends was extremely vulnerable with me yesterday. I simply listened and talked to him about other options that he could take and I could instantly see a closer connection and more hope for him.
I am amazed at what meditating has done to me and how steady, stable and consistent I am. Last week I had four different deals have significant issues. This week I am putting 4 listings on the market (one of which was a deal that fell apart last week). Through it all I have stayed consistent on what I need to do. Through it all I have been able to keep my calm and simply move forward.
This weekend I got to play with my girls. We all went out for dinner Saturday night and got sushi. That went well for about 90% of it and then the girls were just ready to go. We went down to the skywalk and just let the girls roam. It is so fun to watch what they each do. Nora rushes forward and leads the way. Hailey was first wanting to hold everyone’s hand, and then got more and more adventurous, and then wanted to do everything that Nora was doing.
I am amazed at what this week has brought. I have had single days with huge swings in ups and downs in how I feel and in thinking about where I am headed. I had three deals almost fall apart, and now it looks like I can save all of them. I had deals that I have been working on for over a year finally come together. I have been all over the place.
Last night Scott and Diana came over with Theo. They were only able to stay for a little bit, and it was fantastic to just get to see them. Theo is huge! Hailey was happy to play with them and Nora did her own thing. Amber and I were just happy to catch up. I love getting to see family and friends. I am constantly talking about how hard it is to see people with other people. I think that I am very lucky to have so many good people in my life.
I am grateful for Scott and Diana.
I am finding myself in an interesting position. I am simultaneously more resolute about what I want and why, while also being more terrified of chasing after it than ever. I am finding myself excited about what I am doing and who I am becoming. I am also finding that I am scared of what if I get it wrong? What if I am making the changes that I am making and I am wrong?