My Worst Life

I have to get up every day and go to a job where I am told what to do, how to do it, when to do it, and when I am allowed to do other things. I am not learning. I am not growing. I am tired all of the time.  I don’t get to see many people. I am forced to focus on a lot of the detail. I am doing the same thing every day.  What I do has little impact  on those around me or the world in general.

I am lazy. I eat like crap. I never have the time or energy to workout.  My body hurts all of the time. I am constantly bored and thinking about the next thing that I have to do. I am stressed about money. I am always wondering if I am going to make it through the next month financially.

Amber doesn’t want to talk to me.  Nora and Hailey treat me like crap.  My parents and sister barely talk to me.  I rarely, if ever, see my friends.  I have no outside interests. I never read. I never get to go see movies. I don’t get to spend time or money on myself.

 

I am grateful for Cooper and Harry.

I am grateful for Isla and Jack.

I am grateful for an afternoon with Nora.

I am grateful for Hailey’s huge smiles.

I am grateful for Hailey knocking me down.

I am grateful for Ramit.

I am grateful for looking for what does not make sense.

I am grateful for thinking about Amber.

I am grateful for thinking about my dad.

I am grateful for Amber being an incredible mother.

I am grateful for Amber being incredible.

I love my life! Thank you!

~Ryan Lynch