I have been listening to a book called Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach. This morning I was listening to it while I drove and she was talking about accepting fear, and it gave me the idea that in 2017 I had decided to live with my fear and see what happens. I decided to focus on the parts of my realtor business that I did like (my current clientele) and let go of the parts that I did not like (prospecting for expireds and for sale by owners).
I have been thinking about how badly I need to get back to journaling. I am needing a good place to get down my thoughts. So here is me writing a post and making myself start the habit. To be continued TOMORROW!!!
I am grateful for pancakes.
I am grateful for the Joker and Harley Quinn.
I am grateful for BOLD.
I am grateful for my new bike.
I am grateful for Cooper.
I am grateful for good business.
I am grateful for sunshine.
I am grateful for darkness.
Nora and I will occasionally have conversations in song. Instead of just talking to each other, we will sing to each other. As of late, Nora has only been singing one thing to me:
You’re Awesome! You’re Awesome! I love you! You are Awesome!
I am a very happy daddy.
I am grateful for daddy-daughter days.
I am grateful for sunshine.
I am grateful for camel rides.
I am grateful for carousel rides.
I am grateful for face paint.
I am grateful for feeding the goats.
I am grateful for feeding the fish.
This weekend was one of family and friends, and I loved it so much. I got to hang out with Amber, Hailey, and Nora for so much of it. I also got to help RJ and my father build RJ’s deck. We went over to the Rads Saturday morning and I helped RJ and my dad while the girls and kids hung out. It was wonderful to just be with family and be doing something. Plus, I got to remove the root! Sunday morning we went to the sculpture garden and then over to the water feature one block over. Just playing and having fun with the kids in the water was so fulfilling.
I got the horrible news on Monday that a friend of mine’s son had died. This was terrible. It put me into a weird thought process and made me do some deep diving on me and my failures. The first was how terrible I felt. I was afraid to call my friend. What do I say? I always want to help and make people feel better. What do you say to someone who just had a child die? I felt so ashamed that I could not call.
Yesterday I got to talk to Jim. Jim had been trying to sell his house for four years. Today is the closing. He was so happy that I came in, told him the honest truth about his property and helped him in every way that I could. Yesterday I stopped by to grab my sign and lock box, and to talk. He was so happy. I love getting to truly help people. I am building a business that is relationship based, and Jim will be a relationship in my business for years to come. I am thankful for Jim.
Last night I had a seller who had not completed everything they agreed to on the inspection addendum, and we are supposed to close tomorrow. I could tell that he was defensive and apprehensive. In the course of our conversation I offered to drive over and get on the roof with him to help him out. Instantly, his entire demeanor changed. I could tell there was gratitude, and more than that, he knew that someone was there for him.
I love when I can do exactly what I say I will do, especially when it is for a close friend. Yesterday I sold Pat’s house exactly the way that I said I would down to the word. What was cool for me is that the whole time I was not thinking about how awesome I was, or how happy I was to be able to do that for Pat. All I was thinking about was that I was so happy to have Pat back in my life. He is a mentor and a friend, and I am extremely lucky to have him. Thank you universe.
I have had weeks of being distracted from my morning routine. I was sick. Amber and I went to New York. Hailey was sick. It is incredible at how quickly you can fall off with only the slightest of excuses. Then this morning I got up, ran, meditated, and now I am here. I feel good.
I had months of wondering if my desire to live life at my own pace was possible. Lots of doubt that I was screwing myself, my business, or even my family. Then everything hits at once and more and more people keep coming to me to ask for help. I feel good.
If we are taking away our focus from what is wrong, where should we put our focus? What is right. What are you grateful for. Gratitude is the best answer. When you are constantly focusing on what is good in your life, guess what you are going to find more of.
Imagine that you go through your whole day and all day long you are noticing the big and small things that you can be grateful for. How would you feel? How would people treat you? Imagine you have something bad happen to you, and you choose to focus on the good that will come out of it. Would that mean that every experience could possibly have some good in it? There might possibly be experiences with absolutely no good in it, I don’t know if I believe that that is truly possible though.